Monday, February 19, 2018

Confession from a control-freak

Lord of Lords,

I want you to be present in my life.
I even want you to be in control--
so why do I chafe against life's constraints, against unwanted circumstances?
Why do I grumble about the time it takes for you to work in my life?
Why do I say I want your will, even while I plan and control my own destiny?

I worry about what will happen and what hasn't happened.
Although  I don't blame you audibly,
I find myself annoyed with my life
and avoiding my quiet time with you.
Because I've distanced myself from you.
My life is a testament to how and if and when I let you work.
My attitude reveals my heart.

I respect the beauty of your power, but not the impact of it.
It's like controlling the ocean, the surf, and the shoreline and thinking that would make the ocean better.
In essence, that would ruin the majesty of creation.

Lord, help me be willing to give you my whole heart.
Convict me when I don't.

Please forgive me. I want you to have all of me.

Amen.

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Praise and thanks for using me

Heavenly Father,

Why do you bless me so much?
I am in awe of your perfect ways and the grace you give when you let us become involved in the work you're doing around the world.

Today you let me meet a child I've sponsored for 15 years, halfway around the world.
We share love and appreciation for one another, even though we had never met or talked before today.
You have knit our hearts together in the Lord.
Even though we don't share race,
culture,
economic status,
gender,
age,
or interests,
this relationship has enriched and changed our lives.

Your Spirit accomplished that.
Thank you for using me and blessing me in the process.

How awesome are your ways, O Lord!
Amen.

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Thank you for the snow . . . and for heat

Lord God,

Your creativity and artistry amaze me.
Thank you for the beautiful snowfall.
And more importantly,
thank you for my home and my heat.

You are too good to me.
Amen.

Friday, January 12, 2018

Help me prioritize

Lord,

Help me prioritize.
My work is piling up.
I have so many projects, pressures, and demands.
At work and home, the list is endless.
I've missed some family time.
I haven't exercised.
My devotional life is poor.
Friends are waiting for lunches.

I'm like Martha--worried and upset about many things.

Few things are needed--
or indeed only one.

Help me see You
in order to choose You.
Instead of asking You to point me toward the priority that I should do first,
I want to make You the priority.

Help me to chose what cannot be taken away.

First You.
Only You.

I choose You. In Jesus' beautiful name,
Amen.


Luke 10:40-42


Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Praying for protection and healing

Dear Heavenly Father,
Jehovah-Rapha, the God who heals--

Please protect and heal my loved one today.
You created him,
You love him,
You have a purpose for him.
It is Your nature to heal, restore, and renew.
Please grant healing and restoration to him today so he can continue the calling You've given him.

I trust You, and I trust Your will.
I give You control (because You already have it), and
I will show that by giving You myself and my worries.

Rapha, Healer, You make all things new and beautiful.
Heal my tired spirit and my anxious heart.
Make me like You,
full of hope and joy.

Forgive me for the many times that I doubt because I don't see healing happening like I want it to.
Healing is Your call.
Your gift.
Your perfect will.

I love You.
Amen.

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

I want You

Dear Lord,

I want so much.
I want happiness and success and impact.
I want friends and family.
I  need to stop a second and thank you, because your generosity has exceeded my wants.

Thank you for using me.
Thank you for saving me and filling me and hanging with me even when I stop hanging with you.
Thank you for gifting me, even though I don't always appreciate the gifts you choose for me.
Thank you for my family, for our home, for our opportunities,
for all the things I grumble about that are incredible blessings.
May I complain less, argue less, pout less, despair less, give up less.
Because all things are possible in Christ.

I want your will.
I want what you want, in the way that you want it for me.
I just want You.

Amen.

Monday, November 6, 2017

Make me a Servant

Lord, Servant of All,

Please help me to serve others with a happy heart.
Shut my mouth when I want to complain.
Prick my heart when I feel selfish.
Censor my thoughts when I think I deserve more--
when I believe my life should be marked by happiness, love, appreciation, and respect.

You know what it feels like to be
overlooked and misunderstood,
to work hard at something difficult,
something that expends all your energy
and hurts you deeply inside,
only to be rejected by the ones you served.

Give me your attitude--
or at least, help me to learn it.
I know it comes through hard work.
I'll do it.
I want to be like you, Jesus.
Servant of Man.
Bearer of the cross.
Sin for me, although You knew no sin.

May I serve like You serve!
Amen.