Lord, I'm thirsty for you

Lord,

I'm so thirsty.

I need more of You.
I know that's my problem.
I'm thirsty for You.

Instead, I tell myself that one drink--one verse,
one prayer--
adds enough to my day's experience.
It's enough for a thirsty soul.

Instead of drinking deeply,
I ask You for quick fixes--
instant success,
acceptance,
comfort,
recognition,
security,
love--
from everything and everyone around me,
including You.
That's the water I think I need.
(Click here to listen to the powerful worship song "Living Water" by Gateway.)

Yet I'm deeply parched.
Instead of drinking deeply from the well of Living Water (You),
I pray little prayers instead:

Help me get through the day.
Show me what to do.
Take away this anxiety.
Protect my family.
Solve this problem.
Meet my needs.

Those are little requests--
little drinks of water that will never parch my thirst for You.
They will not sustain or fill me.
They will not give me Living Water.
I will have to come back again and again, wanting more
but never finding it,
until I give up
and say "God doesn't answer prayers" or
"Christianity doesn't work."

Quench me, Jesus.
Fill me up.
I empty myself to You
and ask for everything You want to give me,
even those things I'm afraid of.

I want to drink deeply until I can drink no more.
(Click here to hear the old-time gospel song "Fill my cup, Lord.")

Amen.

"Jesus answered, 'Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." (John 4:13-14)

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